Mixed Feelings This Graduation Season

I've been having some mixed feelings well up over the last couple of weeks. Back in the fall of 2009, I decided to begin graduate school. Some of my journey has been written in a previous post, Pursuing a Degree with Migraine Agony. So, let's just say that my health worsened and I ended up taking a leave of absence after 2 semesters (after the Spring 2010 semester).

Well, the people that were part of my cohort graduated this past weekend. It was my plan to graduate this year, as well. And, as proud as I am of them, it's difficult to see graduation pictures of them without me there, too.

This has actually come as quite a surprise to me because I've been at peace with my decision not to return to graduate school (at least not right now). But, it's still a reminder that I was unable to attain a goal I set for myself, due to my health issues. I find myself feeling extremely jealous of those that completed the program, and I'm not quite sure how to move past it right now.

Yesterday, I wrote a post on my other blog that I really need to try to keep in my heart and mind. The post is called Wait and See by Brandon Heath. I have trouble being patient, but I need to remember the words to this song. Here are some of the ones that are touching me so much right now... 

There is hope, for me yet,
Because God won't forget,
All the plans HE's made for me
I have to wait and see,
HE's not finished with me yet,
HE's not finished with me yet